Can you ever keep faith in college

When I arrived at college I had a simple plan: find friends that have the same beliefs as me, go to Mass every Tuesday and attend church every Sunday. I was so proud that I had a plan but the thing about plans is that they don’t always go the way you want .

Two years later from that fateful August morning…..

I find my beliefs have been challenged, my values tested and my religion questioned time and again and again. Have you ever been so unsure of yourself that blurred lines appear on a blank white paper? I have found my virtue tempted by a tall, dark and handsome bottle of appealing temptation and at that moment I want to chant ‘ma problems ese disappear’ .

University is a great place as it allows you to discover who you are –we learn things textbooks don’t tell us about ourselves and our faith.  It  exposes us to new perspectives, people and lifestyle and it is so easy to lose a part of yourself because you want to do ‘zvoitwa ne povho’ .University was a game-changer for me, it was the darkness that usually follows Zesa’s load shedding –so unexpected.

Please do not misunderstand me ;I love college .Classes has tossed me around and I have had my share of drama but I have also grown into a better version of myself . Sometimes people hide their religion so that people won’t pinpoint them as ‘wekwa Magaya’ or anopinda kwa ‘Makandiwa’ but for some religion is a safe haven.

I think we can all agree that when you are a collegiate you have so much freedom –the crazy parties, the drinking and the famous ‘hook up culture ‘. College is a time for testing and daring yourself to do things differently, it’s not a bad idea to decide to attend a Tuku Concert once in your life .The important thing is that you find who you are and what your beliefs are.

Keeping the faith and your values is hard because you fear being ridiculed, laughed at by your peers and being called old fashioned and in our case ‘Akasara’. No one ever said it was easy and you might be taunted for having certain values but wasn’t it our elders that said ‘Ziva kwawakabva kwaunoenda irima’ which translates to ‘know where you come from, the future is not clear’. If then you were raised a Christian why then hide your values under the pillow for a few minutes of stardom as the girl that can twerk up a storm.

Personally it is not easy for me to keep my values, some days I want to be whisked away by my object of desire who doesn’t even believe in the word and other days I want to be that girl that shows up to mass on Tuesday.

So how then do you keep the faith in college? I would love to hear from you

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Ancillar

Ancillar has a ridiculous sense of humor and is on a mission not to melt in sunshine city .

4 Comments
  1. its really true Ancillar, most of us lose our identity because of a new environment and mostly because we want to “”fit in””. there is nothing wrong with making a few adjustments to try and adapt to the environment but people tent to change themselves completely and become beings that they are not. now, for most reasons, I personally feel that its wrong coz you will be adopting some habits and personalities that aren’t yours at all, in the process, you will be giving yourself away….losing who you are, your true identity just to please a few pears who, in most cases, don’t add much value to you. I believe that at the end of the day, it has to be about me, pleasing myself not anyone else…munhu wenyama hauf wakamufadza…..

      1. well, I think that in everything you do, just be yourself…. don’t try to imitate others. be comfortable with who you are….this thing of saying kuti “”vanhu vanozotii…heee zvinomakisa and stuff”” lol, it means kuti you still haven’t found yourself. im not saying that people shouldn’t self conscious but then people tend to be conscious on the wrong things, and the important things manje ndipo pakuda kutedzera povo in doing wrong.

      2. and the other thing, still on faith and religion….I personally think that if you chose your religion and your church, you should be proud of it. Inini once attended an apostolic church. I wasn’t embarrassed or ashamed of it. of course many people look down on “”mapostori”‘ and stuff like that but I embraced my church. I could even go to school on a Saturday on my way to church to pay my fees before the due date. and guess what, I would be fully dressed in my garment. this startled many people as I was the head girl… they just didn’t expect me to be a “”mupostori”‘. some would look at me in amazement and some would give me those weird looks… I never really cared coz I knew who I was and I was proud of it. I didn’t let environment or people change me. that was just me. so the thing is that you can still keep your faith and religion in college and still be proud of who you are. the thing is, you just need to find your identity keeping in mind kuti peoples identities differ…. you are who you are, a unique being and that’s what makes you YOU!

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