musings – Prowl

Pity Party for Two Please?

I’m 23 and it looks like I should have my life figured out by now. I look around and all I see is my summa cum laude graduated highschool classmates, stable relationships, God is in control type post all over my news feed, Its almost like Their faith, love life and academinc life all got brewed up into a pot of merriment and success and what am i doing, I am a college dropout doing educational time in one of the oddest places in the world. I’m not even sure when my last honest prayer was. I say too much…

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March 13, 2017

Dear Diary

Blurred Lines: My theory on love

I don't really remember when or how we first met, all I know is that he was my housemate's friend. He would drop by every now and then and say hi, drop a pick-up line or two, then be on his way. To be honest, I never took the pick-up lines seriously, I just thought he was my housemate's funny friend and they seemed cute together. I remember him asking me one thing though: "Chico, when are we gonna be friends, you're always in that room of yours glaring at your laptop, trust me I am just as interesting, if…

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August 11, 2016

Dear Diary

“This is the Big Brother House” – My theory on love

"The big brother house is no place for love...for the most part...you walk in, cross your fingers and hope you don't stumble or fall."-anonymous Welcome to the Big Brother house. That's what should have been written on the welcome package i received on my first day of university. "The big brother house" would have been a better way to describe what i was walking into. This bittersweet phase of my life known as the "international collegiate experience." Ever wondered what goes behind closed books and lax class schedules. I had not really given that some thought but fate made…

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August 3, 2016

Relationships

Naming Emotions: My theory of Love (part 2/2)

Part of me is adjusting fast and I'm falling in love with her even more every day. That phobia I once had to connect with someone is gone. She feels safe enough to fall in love with, my heart isn't a vacuum anymore. I understand what true emotions are. (exhale) I can finally let go and breakdown all my walls. She deserves the real me no filter. I know I'm not perfect but I feel I can grow and find myself in her. Today, we went to mass together. I was a little shy when I met her mother.…

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July 31, 2016

Dear Diary

Naming Emotions- My theory of Love (Pt 1/2)

"There is no universal definition to what True Love love is; instead it's something we alone can truly define." Mandla Ginger. “Time is both friend and foe, what it helped build today, it can destroy tomorrow.” Mandla Ginger. In case i don't get to be yours tomorrow, I want our story to last longer than time itself. My days before you happened are a little bit distorted because i can't remember a me without you. That is why this will exist. Let this be the letter or story we leave to our children and let them learn from us, the…

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July 25, 2016

Dear Diary

College Situationships: My Theory of Love

Nobody really expects to be the 21 year old who has never dated or been kissed or asked out on a real date. Every pot has its lid and yet this pot seems to not have been paired with one. Interestingly though there is never a shortage in the amount of ineligible bachelors to entertain me. Amidst all this i wonder at my theory on love. Who's report shall i believe? My broken hearted, jilted friend, my other broken hearted not jilted friend, the bible, the movies or my eyes. In my attempt to figure this out i have been…

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July 23, 2016

Dear Diary

REAL TALK, NO FILTER: MY THEORY OF LOVE

I remember watching a certain movie and learning something about how the dating world is a game of musical chairs. According to this concept after a certain age all the decent guys and girls are either married, dead or have discovered that they bat for the other team. This means then that after this certain age you will find yourself wanting to be in a stable relationship but unable to get into one because it's a game of musical chairs and you my friend have been left standing. I would like to say that this concept does not bother me…

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July 18, 2016

I Am Her

Up for the challenge, down for the dare!

Prowlmag_daretodare challenge I woke up one morning and decided i did not want to be just another oxygen inhaling earth inhabitant. My college experience had to amount to more than just good grades and a clean record. The first step towards that was to surround myself with the people who encouraged me to be the best version of me that i could be. Shout out to my roommate from second year (among others) who had to sit through my countless one-sided life altering deep and meaningful conversations about nothing and everything. The thing that they never tell you though when…

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June 25, 2016

I Am Her

AUNT-FLO MYTHIFIED

When I got my first visit from Aunt Flo, I cried. I was terrified of the impending doom that awaited me in the near future. My small mind couldn’t comprehend how wearing an extra weight in my panties would certify growing up. Just a few months before, while going on about my business, I had overheard some girls talking about cramps. The way they described cramps –made it seem like a consequence of human negligence on your body and from that day on I was terrified of the monthly visitor that I wanted to pack my luggage, board a plane…

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May 28, 2016

I Am Her

Dad–à–tête

I am the classic example of the "know it all." This is probably owing to my extensive library which holds some of the most convincing accounts of life and the world at large. But like all fictional Novels, these books have a gross lack of accuracy in their reconciliation of the real world and the world we readers walk into the moment we turn to the first page of a novel. My acquired knowledge extends from knowing how to "FAKE IT TILL YOU MAKE IT," to "HOW TO TRAIN A DRAGON." So when my dad decided to give me a…

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April 29, 2016